Letting Go...
It’s early in the morning and an overcast sky clothes the sleepy earth. Wisps of mist hang over the skin of the lake like a half-kiss tempted to touch but held back..The waters are inky grey as though reading the sky’s mind.. A chill in the air and a gust of wind as I stand on the bridge that cuts the lake’s vein. Life hasn’t woken up yet , the sun’s only just clambering out of sleep … stray early birds skimmed the skies ..Picture perfect! I couldn’t have held it back any more. I let the kiss go ..and touch.. the waters .. I am letting go …

CHILL MAADI
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Too tired (read bored) with work and craving for some respite, I decided to take a look at the familiar, comforting page of my blog and found a tag there. So there was the outlet for all my pent up emptiness lying neatly in a list of soul searching questions. Still in the hangover, I wrote straight out of the top of my head…Thanks a ton Abhi for this tag – the effortless pressure vent!
Most questions are difficult to answer if its about you .Sometimes you can’t accept the honest answer, some other times you would rather deceive than be truthful …and sometimes...You just don’t know...Plainly, painfully...dont know...lemme see how much I know me...
I am: a dreamer
I think: a lot! Winding, never ending and not-so-pleasant thoughts.
I know: that there has to be some purpose which I am to fulfill with my life .I don’t know what yet!
I want: to know what it is that I should fulfill
I have: tons of energy and enthu; but no direction.
I wish: I never will need to wish,’If I could live my life again....’ Wanna do it right the first time!
I hate: Mediocrity...Though that seems to be the most celebrated thing now.
I miss: Childhood...When you didn’t need a reason to be happy.
I fear: failure?? NO!! I fear not having the guts to attempt what I really want.
I hear: (easy) Pink Floyd mostly these days...
I smell: not! I bath! :-P
I crave: for peace of mind.
I search: for some meaning in life
I wonder: eternally ...’what is my purpose …?’
I regret: deeply, for being too unforgiving to a childhood best mate...
I love: everything and everyone .I am soo mesmerized with this world
I ache: for freedom of expression/way of life/being me
I was not: i dont know this one
I am not: arrogant...Just too easy on myself.
I cry: when I am helpless...And I have noticed that people act kinder to you afterwards .so crying aint that bad...
I believe: in principles .They act as the anchor when life tends to stray.
I dance: from my soul...Dance is an expression of freedom
I sing: -do-
I read: so I may live .Books work like oxygen for me.
I don’t always: shut up and end the argument because I ran out of points .I just realize that we are on parallel plains and will never understand .I don’t believe in winning arguments by force .
I fight: for the causes I believe in .Unfairness is the most common foe.
I write: my heart out in my diary, so that I will always know the thoughts that I thought and the things that I did.
I win: hearts with my smile, and pals with my genuineness.
I lose: heart at obstacles, which I know is very bad...
I never: lie! Unless my life depended on it!
I always: try to look at the brighter side.
I confuse: with numbers a lot .wth.
I listen: attentively and help others unburden.
I can usually be found: with headphones plugged in.
I am scared: of not being the best that I can be in this life.
I need: to be loved and pampered, for optimum performance!!
I am happy: about the world around me; not sure about the world within...
I imagine: a life full of music and sunshine, with purpose and cheer.

Now I invite anyone who needs a respite from life to take up this tag...No formalities here okay .Help yourself and do the tag , or feel at home and leave a comment or two ;whatever you feel like ..Dont let life outsmart you .

Chill maadi !!

Bloggers' Block
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I look all around me for that elusive bugger called inspiration to pen down something for my blog and I see the same neon signboard in each of those directions-‘You have reached a Blogger’s Block!’.Shucks man..
So I take refuge in this tag I saw in my best pal’s blog..

Disclaimer : Umm..folks ,I am not even attempting humour so relax ,you don’t need to understand the comedy of anything that may sound witty ,its just an accident!

1.LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN A THEATER?
Race in PVR.
My colleague had put forth the suggestion thus..
‘Hey lets go for race!’,which led me to think the guys were becoming adventurous for the weekend.So that weekend I turned up at Forum ready to be the awe-struck witness , and ended up watching Saif n Bips indulge in quite a race..

2.WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
Alchemist by Paulo Coelho..
‘When you want something , the whole universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.’

3. FAVORITE BOARD GAME?
Keyboarding!!Scrabbles too

4. FAVORITE MAGAZINE?
I soo love RD.

5. FAVORITE SMELLS?
Is anything cooking?

6. FAVORITE SOUNDS?
The hustle and bustle of our busy food courts and my pals chattering away . I enjoy watching them chattering amongst themselves and feel the merry mood that settles upon us.Those are the times when I feel that the world, after all ,may not be that bad..or boring..I love my friends!

7. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?
Used to happen frequently during my short stint at the Bangalore office.

At exactly 5 mins to the scheduled departure time of the last bus(9pm/am),shoot out of my cubicle/PG and not stop running till I reached the ‘bus ground’/BTM-AXA stop , to see the last bus just pass by..I hate hate hate running behind busses that don’t have heart enough to stop for a lady..whew..

8. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE?
Can I steal 5 more mins of sleep?

9) FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
CCD & Chocolate in Blore DC(Development Centre)

10. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME?
Blush…will be one of Lord Ganesha’s names. (Vinaayakane..pious sigh..)

11. FINISH THIS STATEMENT. "IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY I'D...?
If I had more than what I needed for a comfortable life , I would give it away for a noble cause for children. And I don’t need to say this here cos it sounds good, which means.. ‘I mean it’.

12. DO YOU DRIVE FAST?
Yup. But not too fast as I hate rash driving , just fast enough for some harmless thrills.

13. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?
Ahem! Umm…Cough..twitch twitch..
Sheesh man,what a yuck question is that..

14. STORMS-COOL OR SCARY?
Awesome to look at. But considering the trouble they are capable of , I would rather not be in so much awe!

15. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR?
How painful can this thing get ? I don’t own one yet..

16. FAVORITE DRINK?
Sweet lassi meinu bahut pasand hai!!

17. FINISH THIS STATEMENT, "IF I HAD THE TIME I WOULD
Just wander around the world observing its small wonders and spent my life whetting my appetite for fantasy , walk with bare feet on wet grass and listen to the sounds of nature..

18. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS ON BROCCOLI?
Ahem..I eat bitter guard if you wanna know.

19. IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR, WHAT WOULD BE YOUR CHOICE?
Don’t like the idea much.I have got jet black hair and love it that way.

20. NAME ALL THE DIFFERENT CITIES/TOWNS YOU HAVE LIVED IN.
Trivandrum , Mysore , Bangalore..Love all three.Each city/town has a unique beat of its own which is alluring and enchanting , which you realize as you get the groove of it!

21. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
I am stumped!

22. ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU.
I took this myself from my pal’s blog , and speaking about me , everything is soo nice that its difficult to pinpoint.That sounds conceited ,but I had to tell the truth, right?

23.WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED?
Cobwebs and my 4 pair of shoes.Emergencies about the shoe situation ,scares the hell out of me.Therefore the neat pile.

24. WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE BORN AS YOURSELF AGAIN?
YUP.Me ..with all my insecurities , frivolities and confusion.
I zimbly love myself!

25. MORNING PERSON, OR NIGHT OWL?
Night owl ..hoot hoot..(there you have the proof!)

26. OVER EASY, OR SUNNY SIDE UP?
I will need to flip a coin on that.

27. FAVORITE PLACE TO RELAX?
Anywhere.Place doesn’t matter , it’s the mood ..

28. FAVORITE PIE?
American…teeheee

29. FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Bitter chocolate.
I came across something called ‘Death By Chocoate ‘ (sinfully choc!!)in a B’lore ice cream corner and went gaga over it.

30. OF ALL THE PEOPLE YOU TAGGED THIS TO, WHO'S MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND FIRST?
Not taggin anyone..

(PS : After 3 months in Namma Ooru , Bengaluru.. , I am now in my hometown..)

i Return

Life looks all good with guitar strumming in my ears and lilting, lovely solitude this evening as the sun sets beautifully and all my cubicle-mates (mercifully/for solitude sake only..) leaving early ,giving me a chance to indulge in the all-time love of my life-writing my heart out!(Now you know why I had disappeared behind the horizon for these four months!). As I realize what a golden opportunity has befallen me, a wicked smile spreads itself on my face and rubbing both palms together I grab the keyboard for one of those adventurous sessions of ours..(I meant blogging! C’mon people..)
A quick update on my life since my vanishing act.
The initial two and half months were spent in Mysore undergoing training, were I got to learn my favorite programming language-Java.Fell in love with it all over again.! But that’s not all. Those two and a half months kept me so thrilled and busy that I didn’t even miss blogging.(Imagine!)It’s a paradise on earth that deserves to be spoken about for hours on end…absolutely loved it there !!
After training , they immediately pressed me into services and life hasn’t slowed down since.(Smart people are forever in demand you see…no wonder I am so jobless ..) Let me not bore you with any more specifics..
Outstanding memories
Special Diwali with special kids
I had the opportunity to spent the last Diwali in a special home for underprivileged and economically backward children,organized by our most kind Mysore-HR department.Frequented and supported by folks from the nearby residential company campus and people from all other walks of life,and run by ‘amma’ as she is dearly called,I noticed that the kids there received more love and attention than the kids in any of today’s homes, born to ever-busy parents.They recited entire chapters from Bhagavad Githa and conversed fluently in English with us. Made me wonder who is really underprivileged!

Tearful TZP
Yea its too late now..the movie has been all but forgotten .But I can never forget the experience of consoling the tearful guys who accompanied us for the movie!We virtually sobbed on each others’ shouders..Cheers to those guys cool enough to weep before girls.Guys , you rock!

One thousand new pals
The whole training batch consisted of 1000+ people .Man!Was it huge!!
It was an unbelievable experience , meeting all those lovely and cheerful people who quickly turned to dearest mates. Each and every one of them were special and recalling those faces now gives me that warm fussy nostalgic feeling as of a dream-life fully lived.Lovya all people..

That’s all for the time being.Catchya sooner than later.. ;)